Let me talk about my self, deeper

This writing is actualy a therapy for me.
For my lost.
But no, I'm not gking to talk about that lost until I already sure that I can.

I will talk about anything else.

Let me think..

OK. I know.

I'll tell you what; I will treat people the way they treat me.

Yap. If you good to me, I'll be good to you. If you nice to me, I'll be nice to you. If you neglect me, I'll do the same to you.

But it does not mean that if someone is bad to me, so mean to me, or they hurt me, then I'll do the same. No. I'm not that kind of person. I will still try to be good to them. At least until they step over my limit.

I have a good example.

Ooh, you should believe that I actualy don't want to talk about this person. I already got over him. But he's a good example to explain what I mean woth my words.

OK. So, this person, just call X, is someone who rent something for me. He started to use my property earlier than I permit, and it was without my permition, I still finaly lermit him. He was late for the payment of the rent, but I still be nice to him. He did not confirm for any change that he made during the rent time, I still let him rent my property. Untill he was unable to be contacted and had no good will to contact me inreturn, and he lied, and he broke his promises... That's when my limit came. I decided to take my property back and "dumped" him. Why? Because I was so tired of this man. I dont want to hurt my self for letting this kind of person ruin my day again. Make sense, right?

Yeah I can dump somebody. Throw his name off of my life. Because I had enough. Beside, we were not so close from the beginning. It was a bussiness relation and I tried my self not to take it personally.

But when it comes to my personal life. I can be different. I might not dump that person. But I treat them the way they treat me.

I also have a good example for this.

So I have a friend. I used to count her as my sister. Share anything I have; stories, foods, gifts, money, and so on. Even secrets. Why? Because I counted her as my sister and we were so close. Then one day I asked about something but she did not tell me. Something which I tought was not harm at all to be told. But she chose to keep it from me. And that's the time for me to think again about our friendship.

That moment made me start to think that maybe she did not count me as her sister the way I did. So I started to pull my self away. We're still friends. We're still sharing some stories, foods, etc. But no secret will ever be shared again. Tho I have to push my self to put distance between us, and it was quite hard because we used to be close. Why? Because I dont want to feel that I lose her, coz I know that she might not think that way too.

That's me.
I do things to protect my self from any pain.